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As she wakes up, Clementine thinks that the previous day must have been a dream before realizing with horror that it wasn’t. Iwan is gone most of the day, and Clementine has to stop herself from snooping through his things. Clementine tries in vain to force the apartment back into the present. She goes through Analea’s old books and sees the travel guides that she had drawn in years before. Though she had given it up in recent months, this practice of drawing in travel guides introduced Clementine to her love of watercolors. She finds her old travel watercolor set and the New York travel guide she had brought from the office. Clementine takes these into the bathtub, the only place Analea had allowed her to paint. She begins to paint inside the book and starts to feel human for the first time since Analea’s death, realizing that dinner with Iwan the previous night also helped her to feel happier.
When Iwan returns that night, Clementine feels brave and flirts with him, inadvertently causing him to burn his finger on the stove. At one point, she thinks he might be leaning in to kiss her, but he pulls away. Clementine sees several lemons on the counter, and he explains that tonight he will be making dessert rather than dinner.
After dinner, Iwan tells Clementine about the fancy restaurant in SoHo he had interviewed at earlier that day and how the restaurant was one his grandfather—who had taught him his love of cooking—had loved and brought him to when he was young. Clementine reveals how she was painting in the tub and explains why and the connection to her aunt. Iwan doesn’t push her to show him her paintings, understanding that it is something that is just for her. Iwan asks Clementine to help him make the whipped cream for a lemon pie he is making for dessert. When she tries it, she waits to tell him what she thinks, mocking his impatience, but eventually admits that she loves it. Iwan shares how the pie was his grandfather’s recipe but that it was different every time, something Analea had always said about Vera’s fettuccini. During an intimate moment, Iwan asks if he can kiss Clementine and she agrees. However, she is reminded again of Analea’s rule about falling in love in the apartment. She pulls away, and Clementine wishes she could tell him the story of the apartment, but she knows he would never believe it.
Iwan is gone by the time Clementine wakes up, and she casually says goodbye to the apartment as she leaves to go to work in the present. At work, Fiona tells Clementine she is worried because Clementine didn’t respond to any of her texts over the weekend. She thinks about Googling Iwan and zones out at a meeting. She can’t help but wonder where he is now.
On the subway ride home, Fiona forces Clementine to admit what actually happened that weekend. Clementine tells Fiona that she met someone at the Monroe who is staying there for the summer. She tells Fiona Iwan’s name, realizing she doesn’t know his last name, and Fiona demands to know everything the next day. When Clementine gets to her apartment, she feels an unnerving silence and recognizes that it is not in the past but the present, and Iwan is nowhere to be found. She tries to leave and enter her apartment multiple times before giving up and understanding that she may never see Iwan again. She searches for Iwan on Google another time and still cannot find anything. She thinks of her aunt’s rule but still tries one more time to enter the apartment, with no luck.
After a month of searching, Clementine stops looking for Iwan so intently. She agrees to a date with Drew and Fiona’s neighbor after Clementine tells Fiona that the timing wasn’t right for her and Iwan. After the date, Clementine tries to convince her friends that she is okay being alone because, like her, her aunt was alone. She also knows she can bury herself in her work if she isn’t in a relationship.
Drew reveals that she has received a proposal for a book from James Ashton, who they had written off weeks earlier, and Clementine reveals she still hasn’t read his article. She mentions that he is coming in to meet with the team the following day but also that he is also considering publishing with different imprints. Rhonda wants Clementine to take the lead on this project with Drew, revealing that they need a big book as their high-selling cookbook author has switched publishers.
Drew tries to persuade Clementine to read James’s article, knowing that she wants him to write a memoir rather than his proposed cookbook. She reads the article on the subway home, recognizing why Drew loves the writer’s voice but also feeling a sense of recognition. A photo of the author finally loads, and Clementine sees that James Ashton is, in fact, Iwan. Exiting the subway, she begins to see his face in advertisements and magazines everywhere and recognizes how much her focus on the future obscures her view of the present.
In this section of the novel, Clementine begins to find herself again with Iwan’s help. When she returns to the past version of Apartment B4, she feels herself being drawn to memories of her old personality before Analea died. She begins painting, once again becoming the girl “with watercolor under her fingernails?” (18). Clementine notices that “It felt nice to do something for me again. To just be. No to-do lists to keep pushing myself through, no expectations. Just me” (88). She forgoes her interest in security and stability when she kisses Iwan, causing her to reminisce once again about the woman she was when she was traveling with Analea. Her willingness to take a risk with Iwan is the first major step Clementine takes in The Acceptance of Change and Personal Growth. After this, Clementine notes that she feels like she is “starved—the wild girl I wanted to be but never quite was, the kind who yearned to devour the world, one sensation at a time” (101). Clementine credits much of this change to her dinners with Iwan and seeing how passionate he is, feeling her own passion reawaken when she is around him. Throughout the novel, Clementine notes how she does not feel broken but feels like she is missing the part of her that makes her feel human, and in these chapters she begins to find it again.
Despite the beginnings of Clementine’s newfound interest in life, her view of the future still obscures her ability to see things clearly in the present. Clementine is holding on to many of her character flaws such as her obsession with work and stability, and these things cause her to miss the things going on around her. Most significantly, her fixation on the future and past keeps her from seeing Iwan in Chapter 17. Though she sees his image everywhere once she recognizes this, she is too focused on her work and being Rhonda’s successor to see the world around her. This highlights Clementine’s limiting belief that there is one specific path she must stay on in her life and how she feels she is unable to stray from it. While focusing on becoming the version of herself she thinks she wants to be, she is neglecting the person she really is.
Clementine continues to see the separation between her two selves through these chapters, especially once she recognizes she could have easily found Iwan if she was really looking. Clementine is an embodiment of the dichotomy of passion and practicality, as each version of her prioritizes one of these attributes. She later separates these two versions of herself by calling them “Clementine” and “Lemon.” When Clementine is entirely focused on her job, she does not put herself or her needs first. She gives up on looking for Iwan when she is forced back into the reality of her work, letting it take priority over her personal interests. Alternatively, Lemon is beginning to find her passion again and wants to return to being the person she once was. As the novel progresses, Clementine will have to reconcile these two versions of herself and determine who she wants to be in her future.
By Ashley Poston