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Dusti BowlingA modern alternative to SparkNotes and CliffsNotes, SuperSummary offers high-quality Study Guides with detailed chapter summaries and analysis of major themes, characters, and more.
Aven visits the nearly empty school library during her next lunch period. She notices a boy watching her and hears strange sounds: the boy is barking at her. Aven tries to ignore him, but finally approaches and politely confronts him. The boy embarrassedly admits he was barking because he has Tourette syndrome. He explains that the disorder causes him to make involuntary sounds and movements called tics. He asks about her arms. Aven appreciates his direct and honest conversation. She tells him she lost her arms in a trapeze accident, which makes him laugh. He introduces himself as Connor. Connor has only been at the school for a year, since he and his mom moved away from his old school, where he used to have friends. At the new school, kids still make fun of him or ignore him. Aven relates to his experience, noting that people either do not talk to her like a real person or try to ignore her. She is glad to have met Connor and feels she is making a friend.
Aven posts a new blog entry about the different kinds of stares she gets from people, which include falsely “blasé,” pitying, uncomfortable, curious, and—worst for Aven—the looks from little kids who think she is a “freak.” Connor, who lives nearby, visits Aven. Aven is pleased by his effort, because she has learned that Connor does not like to go out in public, due to people’s reactions to his tics. Aven learns that Connor’s mom and dad used to fight about Connor’s tics and medical bills, and that this is why Connor’s dad left them. Connor’s mom, an ER nurse, works constantly. Connor explains that he cannot hold his tics inside, and why brain surgery is not an option. Aven tries to cheer him with jokes. They chat with Henry, who talks about rodeos and the theme park owner, Joe Cavanaugh, as though Aven knows them. Connor and Aven investigate the mysterious shed. Inside they find a box that Aven thinks was once labeled “Cavanaugh.” It contains a sketchbook from 1973. The book holds skilled drawings of horses, a necklace, Stagecoach Pass, and tarantulas.
After school, Aven and Connor question Henry about the cryptic comments he made about the park and its owner the last time they spoke to him. When Henry suddenly notices that Aven has no arms, Henry asserts that she used to have arms, and must have lost them in a riding accident. Aven explains to Connor that Henry has dementia. Connor and Aven theorize about the Cavanaughs, and their speculation turns dark when Connor says they could be dead. Aven lightens the mood by talking about a prank she and her friends pulled on a substitute teacher in fourth grade, which inspires her and Connor to play a new prank. They sneak into the steakhouse kitchen, where they see Josephine, the cook and server who always looks at Aven strangely. Aven and Connor steal two steaks, which they hang inside Aven’s t-shirt. When the cowboy shootout show—a daily performance at the park—begins, Aven pretends to be shot, revealing the meat where her arms would be. Little kids are frightened, and the cowboys complain to Aven’s dad, but Aven’s mom appreciates the joke.
On her way to the school library to invite Connor over for dinner, Aven trips over an African American boy eating lunch in a remote part of the school. She realizes she has tripped over him before, and when she apologizes this time, she sees that he looks “forlorn and pitiful” (90). Aven sits down to eat lunch with him. He is impressed with her skillful use of her toes and says his name is Zion, after a character from The Matrix. Zion does not eat in the lunchroom because the other kids see him as overweight, and he does not like them to watch him eat. Aven explains that she eats in the bathroom for a similar reason—because she knows from a negative kindergarten experience that other kids will think she is “gross” when she eats with her toes. In kindergarten, kids asked Aven lots of embarrassing and offensive questions. Because of negative stereotypes about his body shape, Zion had a comparable experience when he started school. Aven senses that she has made another friend and asks Zion if she can eat with him again. Zion happily agrees.
On the bus home from school, Aven finally has a chance to ask Connor over for dinner. Connor is conflicted: he wants to visit but does not want to stay for dinner. Aven notices that Connor’s refusal to eat with other people is a pattern. She turns the conversation to the Cavanaughs, suggesting that maybe they were murdered, and that there is a killer loose in Stagecoach Pass. Aven theorizes that the murderer might be Bob or Gary, out for either money or revenge. She vows to solve the mystery with Connor, and decides they need to re-investigate the shed. Connor agrees to help.
While they are playing video games in Aven’s apartment, Aven realizes that Connor has more tics when he is nervous. Aven’s mom puts Connor at ease about his tics, but he still refuses to stay for dinner. He reluctantly confesses that he sometimes spits food when he eats. This does not faze Aven or her mom, and Connor wishes his own parents were more accepting. Dad breaks the sad news that Spaghetti may have to be put down, as the llama has not been eating. The four chat about Connor’s love of movies (and his refusal to go to the theater) and Aven’s theory about a murderer. Aven’s parents rehearse the story of her adoption: Aven’s mom saw Aven’s picture online while researching adoption, and knew right away Aven was destined to be their daughter. Dad agreed, and they taught themselves how to care for Aven by researching how other armless people carry out life’s daily tasks. They also taught Aven to care for herself, not to be helpless, as she was in foster care before her adoption.
At school, Connor asks after Spaghetti and Aven is glad to report that the llama is improving. She has been spending a lot of time with Spaghetti, coaxing him to eat and giving him affection. Aven sees Zion walking down the hall and calls him over to meet Connor. She explains that Connor has Tourette’s. The boys share a class together, and Zion knows that Connor cannot help his verbal outbursts. Aven fills Zion in on the mystery of the missing owner of Stagecoach Pass. Zion is alarmed, but Connor assures him there is nothing scary going on. Aven invites them both over to search the shed, and both boys agree to visit on Saturday. As they walk outside together, Aven hears someone fake-cough the word “freaks.”
Aven writes a new blog post about all the comically positive things about not having arms. She will never get in a fistfight or leave fingerprints behind at a bank robbery. She does not have to do push-ups or high fives or play golf. Aven wonders, however, if she is writing the post to convince herself that these are good things. The comments on her other posts—including responses from her old friend Emily—are positive. Connor and Zion visit to explore the shed. To Zion’s embarrassment, Zion’s mom, a bubbly lady in a Wolverine t-shirt and a purple skirt, drops Zion off. She is thrilled to meet Zion’s new friends, and Aven likes her. The three friends explore the shed and discover a box of books about tarantulas and a big old desk with locked drawers. They also find a guitar with the initials A.B.C. Aven thinks the “C” must stand for Cavanaugh.
In these chapters we meet Connor and Zion, two other marginalized students at Desert Ridge Middle School who, together with Aven, form a supportive peer group. Bowling builds on her themes of belonging and accepting differences. She also highlights the importance of friendship and family. This section expands on food and looking or staring as symbols, both of which tie into how the main characters see themselves and how others see them.
Attending Desert Ridge is not easy for Aven, despite her self-confidence. Aven shows she has a sensitive side under her breezy, upbeat attitude. She is lonely. Her physical difference from other students sets her apart and isolates her in spite of her cheery independence. When others stare at her, they falsely judge and label her. Aven pretends these looks do not bother her, but they do—she remembers “every time it happens” (62). Aven realizes that she initially treats Connor the way others treat her, when she is uncertain whether to make eye contact and thinks that Connor is barking at her deliberately. Aven, however, has the maturity and self-awareness to recognize and correct her perception. She approaches Connor with honesty and directness and appreciates that he offers the same in return.
Aven immediately feels a bond with Connor, recognizing that they have similar experiences of being reduced by others to their differences from a social norm. Both experience stares, and people behave awkwardly around them, unsure how to respond to their disorders. Connor, however, is also mocked: people mimic his involuntary motor and vocal tics. Other students make fun of Zion for his body shape. When the three leave school together, Aven hears someone call them “freaks,” a derogatory jibe meant to emphasize their differences and exclude them.
Food is also a symbol of their exclusion. Connor, Aven, and Zion avoid contact with other students during lunch because consuming food is a source of embarrassment, an act that calls attention to their differences and that has the potential to isolate them further. Connor avoids eating in public—or even in front of his family—because he may involuntarily spit his food. Zion hides to eat his lunch, fearing derision. And Aven eats in the bathroom stall because she knows she would be labelled “gross” if others saw her eating with her feet. Aven’s reluctance to eat in the cafeteria reveals that, despite her self-acceptance, she worries about what others think and how they will treat her.
Because of their experiences of not fitting in, the three friends have each developed a deep understanding of empathy and an ability to accept others. Connor does not lean away from Aven or treat her like a pariah; he appreciates her adeptness and her goofy humor. Zion has no problem accepting a Cheeto when Aven hands it to him with her toes. They discover a sense of belonging with each other. They can celebrate and laugh about each other’s differences without critical looks or self-consciousness. Their acceptance spills beyond their friend group: Connor and Aven are not repulsed by Spaghetti and his tumor, but instead empathize with the old llama, who is shunned like they are.
Bowling also builds on the theme of the importance of family. We learn about Aven’s adoption and the immediate bond Mom and Dad felt with her picture. Aven’s adoptive parents love her and taught her early on to be self-sufficient. Connor’s family background is less positive. His parents fought over his tics and his medical bills, and his father is no longer with them. His mom is rarely home. Connor wishes his parents were as supportive as Aven’s.
Bowling complicates the positive, humorous outlook Aven displays about living without arms by introducing more of the challenges she and her friends face. The CDC and the Tourette Association of America explain that Tourette syndrome often occurs together with other conditions, such as anxiety and depression (Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, “Anxiety and Depression in Children”; Tourette Association of America, “Co-Occurring Conditions”). Connor demonstrates symptoms of both, which distresses Aven. He displays social anxiety in his fear of going out in public and being around lots of people. Connor also shows signs of depression: he feels guilty about being, as he sees it, the source of his parents’ breakup. Connor admits he does not like himself. Aven worries that Connor spends too much time alone, playing violent video games. Connor’s self-view stands in sharp contrast to the positive light in which Aven generally sees herself.
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