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Helen drives away from Grant’s house, telling herself that it wasn’t a good idea to flirt with him while also admitting that she is very attracted to him. She reminds herself that they can never have a real relationship because of their history.
Days later, Grant grows increasingly frustrated because he has not heard from Helen since she fled his house. He dreads the thought of yet another New Year’s Eve party with high school friends, but he decides to invite Helen, too.
Helen accepts the invitation, and she feels overdressed and anxious as she takes a rideshare to the New Year’s Eve party. To her discomfiture, Lauren lets her in, surprised to see her. They make awkward small talk, and Helen admits she is there because Grant invited her. Lauren casually says Grant seems different lately and helps Helen with her smudged lipstick.
Grant greets Helen, who makes stilted conversation with their host, Kevin Palermo. When Kevin leaves, Helen admits she regrets being surrounded by people she has never liked. Grant implies he is among those she dislikes, but she quickly corrects him. As they draw closer together, touching each other more intimately, Grant asks her to tell him where her boundaries are, alluding to their avoidance of kissing. As Helen presses her body against him, her jealousy gets the better of her and she asks if he is there with Lauren. Grant finds her jealousy intriguing, but Helen soon takes the dominant role. She puts her hand inside his pants and brings him to orgasm.
Later, Grant is alone in the basement, as Helen has left early. He resolves to take a more active role in whatever is happening between them and to ensure that Helen also receives pleasure from him. He realizes that he will take what he can out of their connection, even if it is brief. He hopes to resume their game of seduction when they return to Los Angeles.
Back at work in Los Angeles, Helen tries to tell herself she should remain professional with Grant, who seems to be ignoring her as the others tease her about her upcoming date with Greg, the show’s casting director. Helen goes to see Grant in his office before leaving on her date, and he surprises her by telling her to close the door and then drawing her close to him. As he kisses her head and gently teases her for her obvious indecision about their connection, Helen expresses frustration at her inability to stay away from him. Grant tells her he can’t seem to stop looking at her and asks her how much of her he is allowed to see. In response, Helen unties her dress and Grant performs oral sex on her, gently complaining that she never seems to be as focused on him as he is on her. He brings her to orgasm and then writes his address on her leg, telling her to stop by after her date.
Helen senses their deepening bond and is disconcerted. She goes on her date but thinks only of Grant. Afterward, she drives to his house, promising herself she will leave if she cannot find a parking spot. However, she quickly finds a space and rings his doorbell.
Grant surveys Helen on his porch, asking about her date. She tells him she will probably not see Greg again and asks if Grant will let her in. He watches her enter and take in his space and tells her he makes wooden frames for his art and poster purchases as a form of relaxation. He realizes he does not have space to hang her coat, which proves important later. They eat the beignets Helen brought, but Grant impatiently asks her why she came. Helen tells him she wanted to see his house.
All the while, Helen is bracing herself for rejection and is uncertain of her own motives. Grant surprises her by suggesting they play the boardgame Connect Four, getting out a personalized set. Helen remembers playing the game at a camp where she took a poetry workshop. Grant confesses he wrote poetry about her in college. Helen asks about his ambitions to work on his own show someday, with Helen assuring him she has confidence in his talent. When Grant wins the game, they banter about the prize, and Helen climbs into his lap, intent on resuming their intimacy. Helen finally kisses Grant and is soon overcome by the intensity of her emotions. Grant tells her he is willing to take it slow, if that is what she prefers. He says he wants to give them a chance.
He then asks her why she left his house so suddenly the last time. Helen says she didn’t want to stay in case she behaved foolishly. Grant is amused, asking her to stay the night and assuring her they do not have to have sex. Helen is trying to come to terms with the fact that sexual intimacy with Grant now seems inevitable. She touches his bare chest, fascinated by his muscles. Grant tells her he works out to manage his anxiety. When she expresses doubts about a lasting relationship, Grant offers to be a pleasant diversion. She falls asleep as Grant watches his woodworking videos beside her.
When Helen wakes up, Grant brings her to orgasm with his hands, and Helen jokes that he has saved her from her anxieties about kissing before brushing her teeth. Grant says she is funnier than he expected, which makes Helen think of her younger self and her reputation for being overly serious. Grant senses her discomfort and apologizes. She assures him she is not offended and is suddenly struck by their unlikely reunion. Grant laughs when Helen admits that he hinders her train of thought. He tells her to come shopping with him, as he is hoping to buy a coat rack.
Helen returns to her apartment to shower, relieved that the flea market is closer to her home than Grant’s so that she has a chance to retreat. She is torn between her feelings for Grant and her belief that she is betraying her family by being with him. She insists to herself that her parents would never accept the relationship and that it would only remind them of painful memories that Helen tries very hard to protect them from.
Grant pulls up in his car, and Helen is once more lost in her emotions when he kisses her hello. As they shop, Helen admits that she likes California, especially the space from her parents. When they stop for lunch, Helen’s parents call her, and Grant feels newly doubtful of his place in her life. She tells him her parents do not know they work together, as she avoids raising sensitive topics. Helen describes hiding her vibrator from her parents in college, and Grant reminds her that she is older now. She says that she still doesn’t want to hurt them. She tells him about how her family does not express affection, and she feels that this has influenced her own relationships. Grant assures her he believes in her emotional authenticity, though he increasingly sees the coat rack between them as an expression of emotional distance.
Grant returns home alone. He realizes Helen will likely treat their relationship as temporary because he is not the partner she deserves and his presence in her life is imbued with past tragedy and present grief. He has a near panic attack at the thought of losing her and suddenly regrets buying the coat rack, which he primarily wanted because she would have a place to hang her coat. He thinks this attempt at making space for Helen in his home may prove futile.
Helen hosts her coworkers Nicole and Saskia for a sleepover at her apartment. The two are eager to discuss her dating life. Helen reluctantly admits that she and Grant are seeing each other. Nicole tells her that if she is afraid of getting hurt, she needs to set a clear agenda with Grant. Helen has been avoiding seeing him until he has finished writing his episode of the show, but he has now completed it and sent it in, ending the impasse.
Helen goes to see Grant the next day. Between passionate kisses, she confesses that she is concerned that they have not defined their expectations. Helen insists their relationship must be temporary and relatively private, ending for good when she returns to New York, to avoid emotional entanglement. Grant suspects it is too late for his own heart to be fully protected. After they agree on the terms, Helen takes off her shirt. Grant tells her that he wants exclusivity and honesty from her, and he insists that he doesn’t want to think or talk about how their relationship will end.
Helen and Grant have passionate sex on the writers’ room table. Afterward, Helen thinks about Grant’s writing and how much she has come to admire his skills. Helen is intimidated by the idea of reading his work, which features her beloved characters. She tells him she will read the script at another time and suggests they go back to his place. Grant pulls her into an embrace, noticing her rapid heartbeat, which Helen admits he caused.
Helen talks to her mother on the phone and hears all about a recent family wedding. Mrs. Zhang is upset that the wedding seemed overly Canadian and makes Helen promise her own wedding will incorporate more Chinese culture. She switches to discussing Helen’s single status, and Helen, annoyed, reminds her mother that for most of her life, her parents told her to focus only on academics. Helen recalls a lifetime of being pressured to be a “good girl” and even now envies Michelle for her ability to rebel. Helen ends the call frustrated.
Later, Grant comes over for dinner, and he watches her cook dinner while they discuss their upcoming workload. Helen is nervous about dealing with the studio and directors. After they eat, Helen reclines in Grant’s arms and wonders aloud why he is still single. Grant attributes his single status to his anxiety and lack of self-worth. As they kiss passionately, Grant emphatically insists that he has no interest in discussing a different romantic future for either of them. They spend the rest of the night in bed.
At this stage in the narrative, the theme of Overcoming Grief and Trauma dictates the scope and nature of Helen and Grant’s relationship. Helen tries to resist their attraction because the past still has power over her—not because she lacks interest in him or in a romantic future. Her tendency to literally run to escape him underlines the depth of her fear, as if she can spare herself emotional pain with physical distance. She is reluctant to let her guard down and open herself to vulnerability, afraid of the pain this might eventually cause. Grant recognizes her reluctance but is determined to ignore it; he takes it upon himself to prove that they share powerful chemistry. At the same time, he is deeply respectful of her boundaries, letting her be the one to initiate their first kiss and dictate the limits of their sexual relationship. However, Grant, too, still struggles with the circumstances of Michelle’s death, and he keeps this a secret. He does not tell Helen about his panic attacks or directly link his difficulties with lasting relationships to his lingering guilt over Michelle’s death.
As much as the earlier rifts between them have dissipated, the novel points to other misunderstandings: Grant still does not see The Pressures of Social Roles and Expectations in Helen’s decisions, likely because he lacks cultural context for the unique pressures of her life as a first generation Chinese American. Helen organizes her life around making her parents proud and wants to ensure that they do not have to worry about her. Her conversation with her mother about her cousin’s wedding underlines that Helen faces constant personal and emotional pressures. Her mother wants her to be as Chinese as possible and pressures her to conform to parental expectations. Helen’s envy of Michelle’s rebellion, even as an adult, demonstrates that Helen has not fully accepted her own adulthood; she thinks that by doing so, she would be leaving her sister behind. As a result, Helen sees no future with Grant because her parents will never forgive him and will be triggered by his very presence. Helen believes she owes it to her parents to protect them from grief and compensate for their loss.
These chapters also highlight The Link Between Creativity and Intimacy as Helen and Grant’s creative pursuits and talents repeatedly draw them together. For instance, Helen tries to withhold sex until Grant finishes his episode, only for him to suggest that they negotiate their relationship in the office. They actively script their relationship together, with Helen treating her life like a carefully constructed writing exercise. They have passionate sex in the office—on the writers’ room table—showing that their writing lives have brought them together, despite their differing backgrounds and unlikely reunion. Helen’s anxieties about reading Grant’s episode, however, highlight that writing is never distant for her, even as she tries for a dispassionate outline of a romance rather than a fully realized emotional plot. Her admission to Grant that he always makes her heart beat faster is a confession of his value in her life, even as she insists aloud that they will not become enmeshed.
In contrast to Helen, Grant is immediately aware of his vulnerability, panicking early on that by buying a coat rack for Helen, he is hoping too desperately that she will stay in his life. He refuses to listen to her speculate about their future apart from each other, which is proof that he is committed to her, despite agreeing to her terms that their relationship will have a time limit. Grant’s relative openness and clear investment in Helen underline that their challenge going forward will be her refusal to pursue her own happiness; he is already certain that she brings joy to his life, and he has no interest in letting her go.